Tangent

So, I have learned more and more about my character in the past few weeks. I have began to see myself in a magnified light that is quite humorous. Being in a serious relationship tends to bring the flaws you posses to light and than again emphasizes those pieces of you that are advanced or helpful. Since traveling back to the San Francisco Bay area ( for the third time, in the past year) I have been babysitting a couple of children that I used to teach at San Francisco City Academy. This has been a short term adventure filled with awe, wonder and freedom. This too has been an outpouring of character revelation. I am thankful for these children, I am thankful for their ability to distract my mind from the bigger things in life and help me to slow down and make sure they're hands are sanitized before biting into their subway sandwich. I am thankful that they help me take the focus off of my situation and divert my full attention to making sure their hand is still holding onto that familiar place on my backpack as we make way through the crowded farmers market.

There seems to be a common debate, not only in the Christian world but also realms of philosophy, biology and history about humans being innately good or evil. My boyfriend believes that we has humans are born with a dual nature, good and evil. What is it however, that separates a child's awareness of good and evil from that of an adult. I have come to recognize that children almost have a clearer, more deliberate instinct between what is right and what is wrong. I have spotted that some children posses a stronger moral and spiritual character than a majority of adults that I have met. For example, after displaying an inability to follow directions the younger of the two children I have been working with, was consequenced with 5 minutes off of her play time at the park. The day progressed and was long, so I almost forgot about the small incident. Later, at the park I was confronted by the child " Ms. Tremblay, remember I tried to run in the street after you told me to stay by you, I owe you 5 minutes." I was both impressed and humbled by her honesty. The convictions in regards to certain acts in children are so strong, prohibiting them to act or causing them to experience visual anguish during the act, which they believe may be disobedient. These Children may not know the exact logistics of right and wrong, they may not have a grip on what law states or how to restrict/ release certain emotions but their convictions are strong. Conviction being a spiritual and intangible characteristic that has the probability to deteriorate in adult life . I am in awe at this experience. These children who have a reputation in their family and school environment for being disobedient and at risk, responded to every direction I proposed with little to no redirection. Almost as if they wanted to be corrected.

Perhaps I agree with my boyfriend, about the dual nature topic. We as adults have the choice on which nature we feed more attention to. Tending to the good we posses inside of us ,more often than feeding into the sinful pieces perhaps is the definition I associate with attempting to glorify God, which leads to reflecting the character of Christ to the world.??